Wednesday, June 20, 2012

I'm an educated man, the prisons I know are subtle ones

Poetry and prison have always been neighbors

 You have to know how to look even if you don't know what you're looking for.  Thats all I was asking the other night my love, I wasnt dissapointed, i was proud of you, even in that moment.  I want you to know yourself to know why you want the things you want and do the things you do, but Im not sure you could ever dissapoint me. I love you more today and you will always be my little ball of Hope!
 Books are finite, sexual encounters are finite, but the desire to read and to fuck is infinite; it surpasses our own deaths, our fears, our hopes for peace.
 We tell ourselves that art runs on one track and life, our lives, on another, we don't even realize that's a lie.The world is alive and no living thing has any remedy. That is our fortune.

 The secret story is the one we'll never know, although we're living it from day to day, thinking we're alive, thinking we've got it all under control and the stuff we overlook doesn't matter
 There's no place on earth with more dumb girls per square foot than a college in California
 Nothing happened today. And if anything did, I’d rather not talk about it, because I didn’t understand it
 In some lost fold of the past, we wanted to be lions and we're no more than castrated cats.  BTM broke my heart
                                                             Haters Gonna Hate
 I steal into their most shameful thoughts, I'm in every shiver, every spasm of their souls, I steal into their hearts, I scrutinize their most fundamental beliefs, I scan their irrational impulses, their unspeakable emotions, I sleep in their lungs during the summer and their muscles during the winter, and all of this I do without the least effort, without intending to, without asking or seeking it out, without constraints, driven only by love and devotion. And the highest honor ever bestowed upon me by a crab fisherman is that I am "a silly faggot"
 He was an atheist and it had been years since he read a book, despite the fact that he had amassed a more than decent library of works in his specialty, as well as volumes of philosophy and Mexican history and a novel or two. Sometimes he thought it was precisely because he was an atheist that he didn't read anymore. Not reading, it might be said, was the highest expression of atheism or at least of atheism as he conceived of it. If you don't believe in God, how do you believe in a fucking book? he asked himself.
 What twisted people we are. How simple we seem, or at least pretend to be in front of others, and how twisted we are deep down. How paltry we are and how spectacularly we contort ourselves before our own eyes, and the eyes of others...And all for what? To hide what? To make people believe what?
 thats not a happy face!  we interpret life at moments of the deepest desperation dont we.  You got moxy girl, you got real moxy!I'll tell you, my friends: it's all in the nerves. The nerves that tense and relax as you approach the edges of companionship and love. The razor-sharp edges of companionship and love.We all have to die a bit every now and then and usually it's so gradual that we end up more alive than ever. Infinitely old and infinitely alive
 Nothing good ever comes of love. What comes of love is always something better. like my man Pac kept saying " if you cant learn to love her you should leave her"
So everything lets us down, including curiosity and honesty and what we love best. Yes, said the voice, but cheer up, it's fun in the end. Im done beeting myself up about my decisions, im done looking at them like a series of profits and losses, whats don landis always saying?... Im over payed in this thing, as of lately Im begining to know that rather than just believe him when he says it, he also says something else...The waiter Always Brings The Check

1 comment:

  1. Ive never claimed to be an expert on poetry, I'm a English teacher not a homosexual.

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