The closest bonds we will ever know are bonds of grief. The deepest community one of sorrow.

I don't think goodness is something that you learn. If you're left adrift in the world to learn goodness from it, you would be in trouble.

People have dreams all the time. It don't mean nothin.The closest bonds we will ever know are bonds of grief. The deepest community one of sorrow.

Stacking out coming home after King crab...

There are no absolutes in human misery and things can always get worse.

if there is an occupational hazard to crabbing its death. if there is an occupational hazard to writing its drinking

You go back home between seasons and everything you wished was different is still the same and everything you wished was the same is different...tossing shots in the shit...watch your feet!!!!

I'm not interested in writing short stories. Anything that doesn't take years of your life and drive you to suicide hardly seems worth doing

If people knew the story of their lives how many would then elect to live them? People speak about what is in store. But there is nothing in store. The day is made of what has come before. The world itself must be surprised at the shape of that which appears. Perhaps even God.

There's no such thing as life without bloodshed. I think the notion that the species can be improved in some way, that everyone could live in harmony, is a really dangerous idea. Those who are afflicted with this notion are the first ones to give up their souls, their freedom. Your desire that it be that way will enslave you and make your life vacuous.

 If it is life that you feel you are missing I can tell you where to find it. In the law courts, in business, in government. There is nothing occurring in the streets. Nothing but a dumbshow composed of the helpless and the impotent.

I left this job the same way I got it, with a duffle bag and a handshake. I wasn't a badass but I was a good crabber and I loved a piece of this job. It gets inside you, it calls you back and it becomes the cause of and solution to so much pain... a prime example of how the things I want and the things that make me happy aren't always the same thing. Ille miss it but not as much as I miss my wife and marley.

Ice at St Paul.opilio crab 2013. Bering sea fisherman second to none.LOL

these birds are like buzzards and I have an overwhelming urge to kill and eat one

Second opilio delivery...halfway through the quota..You never know what worse luck your bad luck has saved you from

There is no God and we are his prophets

Deep in each man is the knowledge that something knows of his existence. Something knows, and cannot be fled nor hid from

I don't know why I started writing. I don't know why anybody does it. Maybe they're bored, or failures at something else.

the church i see every time i make it back to dutch... i survived and ille see them soon

the only thing that approaches gods infinity. is mans vanity

"He stood at the window of the empty cafe and watched the activites in the square and he said that it was good that God kept the truths of life from the young as they were starting out or else they'd have no heart to start at all"

love my hair

7.5 months