I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity

To recognize my own insanity is, of course, the arising of sanity, the beginning of healing and transcendence…Inversely my fear my insanity is caused mainly by thinking…Not to be able to stop thinking is a dreadful affliction, but I don't realize this because almost everybody is suffering from it, so it is considered normal. This incessant mental noise prevents me from finding that realm of inner stillness that is inseparable from Being. When I become aware of silence, immediately there is that state of inner still alertness. You are present. I have stepped out of thousands of years of collective human conditioning….No bait chopper, no bank account numbers, no vows just the truth. The truth is inseparable from who I am. Yes, you are the Truth. If you look for it elsewhere, you will be deceived every time. Dogmas--religious, political, scientific--arise out of erroneous belief that thought can encapsulate reality or truth. Dogmas are collective conceptual prisons. And the strange thing is that people love their prison cells because they give them a sense of security and a false sense of "I know”. Just as dogs love to chew bones, the mind loves to get its teeth into problems. That's why it does crossword puzzles and builds atom bombs… waits tables buys chevys goes crabbing wears makeup…seeks pleasure

Pleasure is always derived from something outside me, whereas joy arises from within…. Folks get it twisted, dog, I get it twisted.What is commonly called "falling in love" is in most cases an intensification of egoic wanting and needing. You become addicted to another person, or rather to your image of that person. It has nothing to do with true love, which contains no wanting whatsoever. The past gives you an identity and the future holds the promise of salvation, of fulfillment in whatever form. Both are illusions. Love makes the world less worldly, less dense, more transparent to the divine dimension, the light of consciousness itself…. The eternal present. That space within which your whole life unfolds, the one factor that remains constant. Life is now. There was never a time when my life was not now, nor will there ever be. Don't seek happiness Bowman. If you seek it, you won't find it, because seeking is the antithesis of happiness. All cravings are the mind seeking salvation or fulfillment in external things and in the future as a substitute for the joy of Being….HMMMMMMM, I know this stuff I used to fucking live it… Im an educated man my prisons are subtle ones.  Be careful live by unrementing obiedience to the heart or die by its fucking yolk

“Solitude is indeed dangerous for a working intelligence. We need to have around us people who think and speak. When we are alone for a long time we people the void with phantoms”

"The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four people is suffering from a mental illness. Look at your 3 best friends. If they're ok, then it's you"

"Now this is the point. You fancy me a mad. Madmen know nothing. But you should have seen me. You should have seen how wisely I proceeded.."

KING KRAB 2012

 

You learned to accept, or you ended up in a small room writing letters home with Crayolas.

 Oh, my dear, if you only knew how strange is the matter regarding which I am here, it is you who would laugh. I have learned not to think little of any one's belief, no matter how strange it may be. I have tried to keep an open mind, and it is not the ordinary things of life that could close it, but the strange things, the extraordinary things, the things that make one doubt if they be mad or sane

 I did learn something about insanity while I was down there. People go crazy, not because they are crazy, but because it's the best available option at the time

“Let us consider that we are all partially insane. It will explain us to each other; it will unriddle many riddles; it will make clear and simple many things which are involved in haunting and harassing difficulties and obscurities "